-Waiting for Forever
I was such a better person than I am now.
I was happy, I was open, I was curious.
But I will tell you this, I knew when it was ending
I was overwhelmed with sadness when I realized that I was gonna change,
and that it was most likely gonna be worse.
Like a nostalgia for the present.. I couldn’t shake it.
When Kate Winslet had an intro monologue in the movie The Holiday, her character described what unrequited love is, how it feels, and how it hurts. I’ve watched the movie hundreds of times and it still amazed me how the writer can create such a profound yet clear monologue about unrequited love.
Unrequited love plot differs for everyone, but the monologue fits every sad story. How one sadly hopes for another and pathetically always available for him/her. Sad, but true. Like many girls, I too, relate my life with songs i’ve listened to, novels i’ve read, and movies i’ve watched. a melancholy girl, i am.
In my case, its not a former flame, its a best friend, best man. I have tons of crushes, but only one, for the past 5 years and counting, is the one who puts my world upside down, flared me up with anger, forced me to produce tears like a waterfall, made me threw things out of my room, made me yelled at people who mildly pissed me, but soothed me everytime I was in pain, present everytime I need him the most. the worst part, he did all off that effortlessly. A guy like that, I have only met one.
He never hit me, or say mean things to me, but even without those, he can still make me cry and sit at my low point. And even with that, I always wait for him. Even after he put me through hell, and broke my heart, it doesn’t change anything. He is still my best man.